Hi guys -
So I've been doing photography a little over 2 years now. I've learned a ton.. and improved a lot in refining my eye, post processing, shot selection, lighting, etc. Of course the technical learning process is an ongoing journey of improvement. However - I find one of my biggest challenges to be directing people with confidence.. I find that, often times on a shoot (especially with someone new) I feel like I dont speak up as much as I should and that my full creativity is locked away some where.. like im just running on auto pilot and not fully relaxing and letting my ideas come out.. then I get self conscious about that.. There are even times on a shoot where I feel like somethings not working, and sometimes I dont say anything.. just keep shooting. Im actually very good with people in terms of small talk and making people feel comfortable, that comes naturally to me.. but when it comes to directing people, my brain seems to freeze up. I think I feel a lot of pressure, or put a lot of pressure on myself to be really creative in the moment and I have a fear of looking like I dont know what im doing. I've also had a history of feeling those feelings when it comes to talking to a large group of people (although I've gotten a lot better about that).. I think im afraid of being creative in front of other people.. of having to think on my feet.. because im afraid of failing and disappointing people.. or afraid of people thinking I dont know what im doing. Also - I doubt my knowledge.. like, do I really know how to do this or that? Sometimes I feel like if I just know enough technical details ill feel comfortable.. I think its the spontaneity and trying things out that freaks me out. The interesting thing.. is that half the time I feel really good about my work ... literally in one day, I could go from being like, my works really good, im awesome, I can do anything.. to feeling a lack of confidence.
Can anyone relate? Has anyone been through this? I know that I have a lot of creativity to bring to the table, but photography in a proffesional sense involves a lot more then just the technical knowledge and natural eye. I need to be able to direct people confidently, have a vision, get them to be on board with my idea and see it through to reality.