Completely understand and agree. I have the 22" beauty dish that will work outdoors but it's white and puts out a 130 degree spread. For 60 I just ordered the silver to see if I like it as it's suppose to be a 45 degree spread. It is larger than the 45 degree but looking to order the 45 degree or possibly the 65 degree that you have because for outdoor full sun you just can't beat it's durability/portability. You can use it without a weight with that cheetastand while any box requires weight.