RMH wrote in post #16717813
Thank you so much, i've had a bit of a realization this evening...
I went home and looked through my prints to see if I could spot any themes or patterns (yeah, i'm a bit odd, if i like an image i print it. i did start on film....) and something jumped out at me;
My daughter is very different to me - i was a shy introverted child with little confidence. My daughter has such a big personality I'm amazed it fits in her little body!! She's bold and brave and happy and shouty!!
But when I look though what I feel are my better photos of her... they're all quiet little moments of introspection or quiet interest in things, and there's very little eye contact in most of them.
I suddenly feel like rather than just photographing her
, to some extent I've also been photographing me
(these are chronological, hopefully they show improvement over time)
This is repeated over and over again, quite unintentionally.
As a parent I kinda feel a bit guilty -- My intention I was just documenting my daughters childhood.
As a photographer I'd fascinated to think that maybe my photographs do actually have some kind of meaning to me aside from being photos I like of my daughter. That maybe there is a bit of me in there...
Sorry if this is a bit over the top sounding, esp to those that are more technical minded (I'm generally to be counted amongst those). Maybe this is just all BS and I'm reaching to find something that's not there, but I feel did find something interesting I didn't know was in my own work.
Obviously I have other photos that more accurately reflect her personality, but they're never what I consider to be my better ones...
Other photos I take seem to follow a similar trend...
I think this is a good start, and I think this is also a good reason to NEVER DELETE ANYTHING.
Some people will disagree, but I'm personally of the mindset that people don't do things for "no reason." Yes, there's a reason and there's a meaning, even if you don't know it. If someone takes a crappy photograph and then asks, "why the hell did I take this picture", then that's NOT a rhetorical question. Even if it is crappy (and I am NOT saying that these images are crappy), there's still a reason why the person found it interesting or compelling enough to doument. There's SOMETHING in there, even if the photographer doesn't know it. So it would be a good idea to try to identify what's happening there, why the photographer was compelled to make that image (even if it's a crappy image). Once these kinds of things are known, then the photographer is in a better position to use his tendencies to his own advantage.
But I think that's a good starting point. It's very important to put this kind of attention to one's own work, even if the work stinks (maybe even ESPECIALLY when the work stinks, because people learn the most from their FAILURES). And I think it should ideally go beyond whether or not the work is good, that should also address why those decisions were made in the first place