I disagree with you on not trusting you -- just look at that Tail - high & proud & confident... very secure and loving it seems to me.
My wife got one of her spots. Things change dramatically if she gets held. She's not a young cat and I don't really want to contemplate what hardships she's endured. She's welcome to live out her days in our backyard and garage, get two meals a day and petted whenever she'll allow it.