I bought my first camera used in 1987. It was an old AE-1 from a pawnshop, which came with a couple of lenses. Four years worth of savings went into it. I was 14-years-old, and I couldn't afford a flash.
From that day on, I've always worked without a flash on my "serious" photographic work (I have used inbuilt flashes for snapshots). I've utilized studio lighting and lit macro boxes. I've carefully worked with available light and used reflectors. I've timed my sessions for bright times and days. I've gone to silly lengths to avoid using a flash.
Four years ago I decided it was time to stop being so silly, and I purchased a 430EX II. I took it out of the box, looked at it, put batteries in it, and attached it to my camera. I then turned it off, took the batteries out, and put it in my bag: where it has stayed ever since. I purchased a Gary Fong Lightsphere a month ago. After purchasing my Lightsphere, I put it together, put it on my flash, shook my head, and then put them both away.
It is really time to lay this ridiculousness to rest. My fear of flashes is almost as intense as my fear of fax machines (which can turn me into a tearful and sniveling little girl).
Can anyone point me in the direction of a basic "flash primer" or offer some basic advice (beyond suggesting a therapist, which I'm thinking could be called for)?



