OK, I found a little camera shop locally that sells TONS of canon stuff. I never knew it was there!! Plus they have the same prices as the bigger online stores. Of course that means paying tax, but oh well! So I tried out ALL the cameras he had in stock from the T2i to the 5DII, minus the 50D which he was out of. Well they all felt horrible in my hands except, wouldn't you guess it, the 5DII. The other felt awkward to hold, the grips made my fingers hurt pretty bad. The 5DII balanced very nicely, the grip was more comfortable and it was nice to hold. I tried the kit lens which was fairly nice, but the 17-40 felt the best, but that one is last on my list to buy! But it felt great!!
Bad part (REALLY REALLY bad part) is by the time I got home my hands hurt and I was so tired I had to nap. Man, this really sucks. Even today, my wrists and hands are swollen a bit and stiff. sigh. I don't know what to do. I really want this camera. I have to save up for another month or so if I get the 5DII, I can swing the cheaper ones now, but after trying them I'm not sure I want them (strictly comfort reasons, not other reason.) My biggest worry is I'll love the camera to death, and use it as much as possible, but if my hands hurt this much I worry I'll regret it, since it'll sit in a bag instead of being with me. If when we go on vacation and I go to shoot and my hands feel like they do today, the DSLR (ANY DSLR) would be in my room, and I'd be cameraless or bring a p&s.
Don't get me wrong I do need to upgrade, but I think I'd like to try the 50D and see how close it is to my 30D in terms or ergonomics. Even then, I'm worried it'll be pushing it. The rebel still seemed heavy to me. The grip may have been making it worse, but I'm not sure. With the comfort of the grips the 5DII even with the weight, seemed easier to manage. But I'm now not sure how much I can use it. If it's only used 60% of the time, is it worth the cost? The good thing is I'd just keep my primes and probably only have 1 maybe 2 zooms, so that cost isn't a concern. It's just spending all my camera/lens funds to have it sit in my bag because of same damn disease would kill me. Even if the photos were awesome. Even if i get the rebel and a few nice L zooms to go with it, it'd be the same.
Sorry to vent this here. I just know you guys would understand a bit. Photography being so important in my life, and the possibility of my not being able to do it much longer hurts... a LOT.